Still stressed and still trying - in vain......

......to distract myself.  I am very stressed, very fibro type ill and have the makings (still) of a cold/virus.  Autumn is kicking in here (it is cold morning and night) and some bright spark decided it would be the perfect time to upgrade my heating system and boiler - in one day  :O
I have so much to do I just feel so..........help........

Distracting myself with hot men ;)

I'm just gonna ignore Helena Christensen and focus on Chris Isaak.

Still distracting myself.

Hard work - part 2.

Still hard at it, for the rest of this week and into the following weekend.  Still distracting myself with fun-filled songs.

Hard work.

I have a situation arising this week that is making me feel ill.  Yes, stress and fibro aren't a good combination, I know, and to top it all off I have a cold/viral/high temp thing going on.  Still, this "thing" I have to get on with is a necessity, needs must, so I am distracting myself with thoughts of pleasure and good times.

Heard on Six Feet Under.

Only it wasn't Elton singing, it was David and Keith.

Men can be such arses!

When you're having a meh day......

Blah.

There are days when you feel so pissed off with everything.  You wish you could return to a happier time in your life, a time when everything was OK and nothing ever really troubled you.

Exercising ghosts.

Last year for a certain sabbat I posted this song on FB and dedicated to all who had lost a loved one.  Since then I have lost my brother, my Dad, an elderly aunt and my cousin's wife.  Not to mention family friends and an elderly neighbour.  I seem to have been surrounded by death ever since then.

It goes without saying I now hate this song, but just lately it is always popping into my head.  So today I am exercising the ghost of this song and all that it brings with it.

Every film I watch!

It seems that every film I watch these days has this piece of music in it.  Twilight has it in and then Frankie and Johnny has it in.....OK, so that's only two, but I watched both of these films this week and this piece of music featured in both of them.

Bouncy songs and Cristiano Ronaldo.

This always reminds me of Cristiano Ronaldo.

This came up in conversation the other day.

I have to say, my house is kinda mad.  I have no idea what we were talking about but someone said something and I said, "oh, I thought you were gonna say they might be giants, as in that group".  You just had to be there, it was one of those totally random and mad discussions that I always seem to have with the DD's.

Butt kicking chick!

Yesterday DD1 posted a video on FB by Alannis Morrisette.  She mentioned that she likes Alannis because she kinda reminds her of me cos of her butt kicking attitude.  That was a compliment I think.

Saw this on FB yesterday.

I used to really love this and would always play it.  Haven't had it on in years, someone had it on FB yesterday and I've heard it in my head ever since.

Changes.

This past year has seen more changes in my life than I thought I could ever handle.

Not what I had intended.

I had a different song lined up for today, but it has been one of those typical Mercury Retrograde days where everything is slow and delayed.  I can't even remember what song I had originally thought to put on here earlier this morning, but this is the one that is stuck firm in my head now.

Really need a break!

Something relaxing.

Full moon and mercury retrograde.

Twice this week I have forgotten to do this blog.  This week has been fraught with tensions the length and breadth of the country.  Personally, it has been an awful long time since I have felt this amount of tension - and that is saying something when my life is very often fraught with hassles.

Today I am including three songs, to make up for the twice I missed.  It is not the full moon until tomorrow, but in my experience the days leading up to the full moon are the worst for tension.

Big Love.

I love Big Love.  This is the theme tune for the first three seasons.

Pig of a day.

Today was the funeral of my cousin's wife.  She hung herself on July 30th - we don't know why yet and as a result of her death their is a major rift between her family and my cousin's family.  There is also an inquest into her death and today's funeral was fraught with so much tension and bad feeling.  I'm so glad it's out of the way now.

She had this song played as we all filed in to the crematorium.

Blast from the past.

Wow!  I was 8 years old when this was out.

I awoke with this in my head.

This is ace!!!!

I have been judged and criticised more times than I care to remember about my witchy self not being a rock chick.  I have to laugh at the ideas of some people.  However, I do like certain rock songs - note I say songs here - and this one in particular by Linkin Park is really very good.

Don't really like this.....

.......but it is stuck in my head and won't budge.  I heard it on the radio yesterday but the DD's always play it.

Good question.

I was asked yesterday why I had said my husband was my hero.  It is obvious to me, and to a select few, but not everyone can comprehend the man with the bad heart as a hero.

When I met my husband I was in a very bad place.  I had been raped at knife-point and was battling solvent abuse and bulimia.  Fast forward 14 years and I was back struggling with bulimia after the stupidest choice of my life.

 But he saved me.

It's as simple as that.

He believed in me.

He loved me.

He was there for me, doing what was necessary to help me overcome my demons.  And for that he is a true hero.

Warrior women and Male Heroes.

OK, so maybe I'm getting a little carried away with the warriors and heroes theme, but who cares?

On my other blog I have been discussing warrior women and that got me thinking about my hero.  I guess when you read my other blog you could be forgiven for thinking I don't actually have one, but I do.

In real life my hero is my husband - and of course any member of the armed forces.  My sporting hero is David Beckham and my fictional heroes.....well I have a long list of them; Clark Kent, Luke Skywalker,  Sam and Dean Winchester, Jacob Black and who could not love Wyatt and Chris Halliwell?
From a darker point of view I just love Edward Cullen, Angel, Cole Turner and Anakin Skywalker.

It was a tough choice picking not one but two songs for today's blog post.  The first represents my favourite fictional warrior women and the second is the man (fictional) who I think makes the perfect hero.

Something different for today.

I never usually do anything like this, but I thought it was time for a change.

Today is Lughnasadh or Lammas.  It is the first harvest festival of the year in the Northern Hemisphere and marks the end of the growing season.